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January 12, 2024

I am posting this to breathe some life into these message boards.

I'm sorry; You know, it has been the problem long enough. I am an apologetic person. I think everyone in the world deserves before I do. I break down in tears at an ounce of compassion from people. I just feel so out of alignment and sad with everything. I mean like sad at everything, the kid's cartoons, a stupid insurance commercial, and not just media, oh no. I'll get outdone by a dropped pencil or a misdialed number. I just have no tolerance for anything. I feel myself leaning into what therapists talk about as maladaptive coping mechanisms. I just don't know what to do.

I'm trying new medicine, but I always remembered that sometimes healing comes from somewhere else. I just want to do some work to help me get well. I just want to be happy and be good? You know?

Anyhow, these boards seem pretty quiet,…

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Patrique

Jan 20, 2024

I'm actually off work right now. I'll be heading back to a modified position in a week, not sure what it will be yet; hopefully something janitoriial. I normally work in a blast furnace so it would be a nice change from the high stress and immienet danger.

It feels like the change is going to cause conflict, but I recognize that is likely my prior resistance so I'm just going to embrace it and do whatever. I've done countless jobs already at the plant, so a new one with a few new people might do me some good.

I'm one of the fortunate souls who work in a unionized position so I've been getting full pay for the past month while off. Minus shift differentials and weekend bonuses and cost of living allowances, not to mention overtime. Oh, the overtime.

I digress, a little time cleaning urinals and locker rooms or offices will give me the time I need to reflect and acclimatize myself to these new medicines. It might not sounds glamourous, but I actually really enjoyed doing cleaning work when I had the chance in the past. They had me on a 5-1 shift, it was amazing.

I actually really do like my job, though specifically the pay. I've had more satisfying jobs with better hours, but the difference of 45k a year from one versus the other is a real deep stake in the earth to pull up.

I do like your thoughts on internal focus however. Whatever response comes from inside is got to be one worth consideration. Thanks Antares

IA56

December 23, 2023

Astral Projection

Defense

I want to wish you all

Marry Christmas and a Happy New Year 2024 ❤️

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IA56

Dec 25, 2023

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Thank you Adam...so nice...I mutually will wish that too 💚

December 22, 2023

Looking for a cool astral knight story by Robert

Hi there, I remember reading a great story by Robert or someone way back involving all these astral warriors getting together and fighting some epic neg army coming through some gateway thing. I LOVED all the knight stuff, calling your armor from the creative force of the universe, the sacred responsibility, being able to reform it in the astral with ease because it's alive and has it's own presence, yuo, yummy stuff. I'd love to read more of that kind of thing, it was like jedi vs sith but maybe even cooler. I haven't projected, but I do believe the universe is vast and mysterious and magical and that we humans are powerful energetic beings having a physical experience. Is that story and others like it available anywhere? If not, please ask Terry Brooks to write them up, his style would be so fun with that mythos. If I happen…

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bencrvr31

Jan 03, 2024

Thanks, I think it may have been by someone else and shared by Robert, not sure. It was super cool though, manifesting this dope bow out of the astral. Fighting against a huge neg army trying to come through a gateway in some kids room if I remember right.

Reminded me of the excellent original Ghostbusters cartoon back in the 80s that gave me nightmares throughout my childhood with that damn boogeyman story arc. Rewatched as an adult, that cartoon was legit scary, so well done. Glad I've heard of the navajo beauty way, can't fight fear with anger and more fear, it's by being centered within your own being and community, a sense of gratitude and love for everything you have experienced in this life that naturally motivates anti-entropic behavior. Simple but tricky, I like it, lots of swirling potential in the way things are setup. Sucks sometimes for sure, but I'm still glad to have had the life I've had, warts and all, being violated early in life taught me that normality is not safe. I became sensitive to other's pain because I felt wounded, so I spent my life paying attention to that kind of thing. I might have ended up a total asshole if that doctor hadn't convinced my young naive parents to cut part of my dick off for no reason. I probably would have ended up a total asshole if I hadn't let go of that sense of violation eventually though, it was controlling me from within because I wasn't aware of it. So crazy being a self-aware being, double edge sword for sure, but I'm willing to carry my load of the quilt we're weaving :)