I got to speak with my kids today. I guess they finally missed me enough to ask their mother if they could talk with me. I honestly didn't even know what to say and within a few minutes the call was over, their attention drawn by something else.
I do feel a little better. I guess that a quick call is all they can manage. My oldest talked to me about all the things I don't care about, like hockey and parties I missed. It was nice to hear from him at all. I'm grateful for that small boon today.
Things have been getting worse the past two days for me. Nothing really different, but this afternoon I had sick bowels. It might just be a sign on pending illness, or something more.
My doctors are still arguing about if I can go back or not, which is causing me severe issues. I'm just so confused and scattered. I have no control over it but I still get the effects of all these actions which have piled up.
I guess only time will tell.
