Becoming Limitless

I found myself in a this past year and a half. My beliefs that I held so dear to my heart since before I can even remember were called into question. By no one in particular but myself. It’s something I have been working through. Then last night after another sleepless night I was laying in bed, weaving in and out of sleep. And it happened. I had given up. Thought I was crazy for believing. I had the clearest AP I have ever had. I was inside a giant rock that had pathways and floating other rocks everything was tan but colorful. Someone was talking to me telling me something but I couldn’t make it out. I was stuck upside down but I was not scared and I could feel the presence of someone i couldn’t see. I was filled with sexual energy (???). And I was able to…

Its been a while. Too long. I don't want to live my life looking back realizing how much time I have wasted. I wish I could win the lottery so that I could just focus on what matters most. That said life has been good. There is nothing to complain about...well there is but I am different and handling it well. Its not worth the worry or the constantly talking about it because I know I will prevail and I am not afraid. That is new for me. I like this new me I am stronger. Braver.

I have also been able to make it out of body. Not for long periods but it is happening. And I will tell you this, it has overall enhanced my meditation practice. Even when I am not out of body its different. The sensations are different. The downloads are different. This are just....clear.…

I have been reading a book recently called Letting Go, and it talks about how you are supposed to allow yourself to fully feel whatever feeling you feel in the moment you think it instead of pushing it away. That has helped a lot with my anxiety. There is a part of me, though, that is holding onto the parts I want to let go of. It's an odd realization as all I have ever wanted to do was fix myself.

Today was the first really hard day in a long time. I send my kiddo to a private school. It's the best school in the state, at least, so says "people". I worked very hard to send her there as it was expensive, even with the scholarship money. When she first started going there, I was still driving my old, beat-up 2006 Nissan (it was a great car; I…

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