Psychic/Spiritual Experiences

I have so many experiences to tell...I write them as they come to me...not in any cronologigal fasion..but the energy rising in me so to say.

I was 8 month yrs old...(my mother have confirmed this to happen)...I was awake nights and slept days...I never cried...always happy and smiling...I was awake as usual ...mother sitting by my cradle..looking out of the window...I so hoped her to look at me...I waited patiently....not making much sound...most kicking with my legs and waving with my arms....she looked at me...I raise my shoulders as a sign to her to pick me up...she shook her head and said...I am here...try to sleep....I was not at all sad...but deeply understanding and accepting...it was what it was....The energy was intence ...it is why I have so vivid memory of this happening...

I asked my mother when I was adult why she did not pick me up...she said....you never cried...that is not true at all as she never picked me up...never hold me on her lap more that feeding me....never given me any attention more then changed my dypers....

I started to screem and cry after my visit to hospital when I was 1 year and 4 months age....she did not pick me up when I cried...she just took a fast grip of my upper arms and made me be silent via a chock and swollow my cry....

I am not telling this to put my mother down and in evil position...just telling how it was...and what happened....I have talked to my mother and asked about her childhood...and as she did not get any attention when she was a child...so she could not give what she did not have....I have total understanding and deep love for my parents...they did as well they could...and today I am happy to say...I love my parents...It has taken me many years to remember my core essence....what is...loving..understanding...patience...but still shy because ot this life experiences...I am trying to come out of my shell in this loving comunity.

Love

ia