Psychic warfare and defense
Dear Robert,
Thank you for your book. Many things have been illuminating and helpful thus far (the psychic self-defense book).
We could speak to much but first I wish to offer perhaps a point of research for you and then secondly I have a question. Forgive the length, I trust I will write the words only needed to convey what's necessary.
On the research, I have been attacked in broad daylight, nearly relentlessly for the past 3 years.
Though this will probably sound convenient, or preposterous to you or most readers, the LOUDEST of my attackers told me the he is the great grandson of Herman goering, Hitler's number two in command. This person that I had the misfortune of living with for a year, (during covid no less) is a narcissist at best. A quick google search tells that Herman had a daughter who never married nor had children. A schoolteacher in minnesota (I lived in austin texas, this person was born in baltimore, MD though) also shared a story with a friend of mine that one of her 5th graders said she was also related to Herman Goering.
Prior to this experience, I would've told you that I have experienced Sartori, found Peace, felt love, lived in the quiet of Stillness, not always, but I could go to the "Still Point" on command (perhaps, now, I still can - just a feeling as I was typing this).
That's not to say I felt like I belonged on Earth.
Prior to these attacks, I had read the Kybalion, believed in manifesation, had been sober for 3 years by my own choosing, was fit, healthy, debt-free, gregarious, charming but most importantly kind and compassionate. I'm grateful to say I am still the latter two plus debt-free now (one bankruptcy filing later...).
I am saying this because, I don't understand what has happened to me.
I don't understand why it has happened to me. I cannot relay the hell I have been through in a safe manner for other readers (though perhaps here some would relate).
I AM EXHAUSTED.
I work full time in retail sales and often am battling demons whiilst holding a full-blown conversation, providing empathetic listening and compassion - or a firm hand of rebuke - when needed.
My life doesnt make sense to me.
I am at my wits end.
I am dedicated to my freedom and my peace. I recorded myself doing the Core Affirmation and listen to it every night as I sleep, with classical music in the background. I do banshings morning and night, with all 5 elements.
I sage, I palo Santo, I incense.
There is more - after all, I worked relentlessly at this from the beginning (3 years ago) but only was referred your book a week or so ago. I took a chakra course from Cyndi Dale ( I DO NOT RECOMMEND. For me personally, she deals only in the mental/imaginary plane and actions are simply MUCH more powerful (magick too) when there is a physical component).
I worked with "quantum healers", akashic record readers, hypnotists, past-life regressionists ( holy crap theres a lot of BS "practitioners" out there nowadays.) Real magick (taught to me by a friend) and your work have been the only real "effective" tools so far, or at the least the most effective. I am not yet free, so there is work to be done.
Now to my question more or less, in terms of entertainment - here might be my "weak" spot. Why?
I am utterly alone.
My family has proven to be toxic sadly, or a tool for these negs.
I realized in self-examination through this experience that I have not had an emotionally supportive, truly loyal friend - since maybe 8th grade. But they moved away or I did and we fell out of touch.
I am working to remake new friendships - healthy ones. But my point is that entertainment seems rooted in violence or "testing oneself."
Normally, "testing oneself", trying to be your best self - I would say is such a noble pursuit. At the moment, it seems to be a trigger for me. And as such, an opportunity for Neg attacks:
"Youre' not good enough."
"See, we're here to help you get toughter. You're weak"
...I will not go further, I know you get the point. It seems as if I am being attacked for simply being human. Help me erect better defenses please.
Your insight I greatly appreciate.
Joshua David Keane
(Am I foolish to list my name? Probably, but I feel that it might be the only way to communicate both my core frequency, and also the truth that I am not weak. Nor am I afraid). (but that doesnt mean I seek confrontation with negs.)
Addendum/postcript:
When I was 5 the retina in my left eye detached, causing it to go blind. Doctors do not know why. They tried surgeries to repair, but they ultimately didnt work. As a result the eye is green (as opposed to blue), shrunken and has scar tissue. I love my eye. Don't get me wrong, but after feeling the energetic shift that occured when I applied the blue pen to skin blemishes, I decided to try it for the energetics effect on my eye - lest a neg be attached (or a demon be hiding) there.
It's very difficult to make the x mark in the circle on the skin there - do you have recommendations?
Thank you (prayer hands)
there are levels below which we can go as necessary. this would include experimenting with voluntary possession by more civilised demons, as practiced in some black magic circles. the idea here is that you voluntarily attempt to allowpossession by a more powerful demon that would remove your existing problem entity.and replace it with a more civilised demon that would not torment you. This practice is undertalen by those who oractice black magic. You would need to research this yourself.