Strong body jerks while relaxing and doing energy work
I have a question about something I never found a proper answer to. When I relax, to meditate for example, and especially when I do energy work, some parts of my body jerks (I hope it's a proper word) quite strongly. My head jerks to the side when my eyes focus on something. I am myopic and I can look like most people with glasses, letting glasses to do the focus, but I also learned to actively, intentionally focus that activates something and my head jerks to the side. It's not painful, but annoying at least. It used to be much worse, like whole body jumps above the bed or body shakes and jerks violently if I relax deeply. I can stop it, but it means staying tense all the time. Any relaxation brings some very visible jerk somewhere, head and neck mostly. Being around people basically means I cannot relax... I imagine it's because of major blocks in energy body. I know and was told by energy healer that my energy system was in a very bad shape and it made me feel miserable in my own body since childhood (abusive one). Not anymore, thanks God. But I feel as if I am the only one with such a problem and I do not believe it is so. I never found and heard anyone talking about such symptoms as mine, only some twitching that goes away quickly after some work. It took decade for me doing all kinds of practices to ease those jerks. I would love some insight in that and maybe someone with similar condition will appreciate this question as well.
Update to my answer - I pondered more what you said and I want to share more about that spiritual experience I had. Things seem to come together now, I had only intuitive interpretation before. I remind you shortly that I had an abusive childhood and I was extremely suppressed by my father (also my mother who tried to keep him happy instead of aggressive). At the same time I loved him deeply and was devoted to him and I feel it made my inner conflict and tension even worse. This, my guess, made my whole energy system to be heavily imbalanced. At the same time I had an inner longing for something deeper and felt some kind of connection to something of Light, God, call it as you will. I wanted to destroy myself cause life was hardly bearable, but that something stronger than me kept me going and I could not do it. Yet I had no guidance, no understanding and no spiritual people around me. So intensity intensifies :) Inner conflict and tension grows stronger. When I was 25 I met my future husband who at the time was a lector in a seminar about energy and psychology (EFT, TAT and so on). It was a course of 4 days one week apart. We worked a bit, it did seem to do much to me but other thing did - I felt safe around my future husband (I had no idea at the time we will go this far, haha). And he was from that spiritual world I was half consciously longing for. Because of that, I did something I never did before: I opened up and asked for help. Since I decided to trust, I had a chance to relax and let go for the first time in decades. He agreed to give me additional session. At that time I was barely holding myself together. At the session I told him that I do not want to be, to exist anymore, it was to hard for me. He had me to breath in and out saying I AM (to contradict my desire to stop being). That is when it happen. I did not feel anything but my guess is that all that pent up energy went, as you said, through the major chakra and it was the crown one (I was told later on that crown chackra was opened for a while). My usual self felt like small thing somewere behing me. I knew I was never born and I can not die. I felt like I have never been here before yet all the memories were intact. My husband said I was talking like and advanced yogi :) Thing were very clear to me yet I did not care one bit about it. I was fully functional, went to drink some cappuccino later on with a friend who was with me at the session, but that state persisted. I guess you know what I am talking about. It lasted that day and resonated for quite some time later on but after affect, as you can imagine, was heavy. It felt like dark night of the soul for many years, it was difficult to function and God bless my husband who took care of me. Negs were my "good friends", my system was in peaces (couple of energy workers and mystics put me back together as much as they could), I felt like two ways of existing in one body (still do but not to that extent). So that might be the reason of those jerks I was complaining about :) Please share your thoughts on this. Better understanding helps a lot.