Resistence or imagination?
Hello! Glad to be here and glad to see you being active Robert!
First of all thank you for your teachings and hard work, it is a tremendous help and a very fast track! I am practising every day (almost... :) )
My question is very simple and straightforward , but I need to put it into context and perspective so please bare with me, I will keep it short as asked.
I consider myself someone who has the nobelst intentions even if I am not there yet, at all. So it is not me who wants to mess with these forces, I consider them a naturally occorring "equal and oppsite" resistence . I knew I will face some push-back if ever open this door again. Your Psychic Kung-fu (sorry, had to :) ) book is invaluble, even if I have it only a week or two. And with all things and enormous amount of teachings that came during the last few months (most of them is by you or through you) I was able to dedicate myself to the spiritual evolution like : All-in. So again, I expected challenges and resistence. Two days ago I had this dream:
"In my dream, I am talking to a woman and her little girl. Especially with the woman, because the little girl is silent and keeps her head down all the time. We talk for a long time about completely neutral things.
Finally, I say goodbye to them and prepare to leave. I looked backed at them right before I left when I saw that the little girl raised her head and looked at me. She's a completely average little girl physically, but I can see the energy in her. Two large glowing red eyes stared at me from the black aura around the little girl.
Demon!!! - I told myself.
I chant the words of the banishing ritual, but I have difficulty speaking in my sleep, especially the name of God is difficult to say out loud in my dream.
For the third try, I managed to drive the demon out of her. Which in turn escapes into a body of a cat, which goes completely wild and rabid and tries to run away, but I catch it in time and lock it up for banishing the demon for good. I wake up here"
Yesterday:
Siiting at work. Icredibily sharp pain at my right toe. Like a bite. I tried what you taught. Pain stops instantly.
Today:
Entering the little mall in the city center. After a few steps it was like walking into an invisible spider web. I always had a low level clairvoyance ( which comes and goes as it see fit, never really knew what to do about it) but my ability to sense the enegeries around me never left, and I have never felt something like that. Like a piece of gluey thread attached to my chest and the spider in the middle of the mall - a guy, who looked like a junkie reacted instantly. He was like 10-15 meter away from me, stood up. I knew that it was him. Although junkies in the morning in mall in Sweden? Not so ordinary thing. I was inmediatly pushing againt it, "NO! F@CK OFF! NOW!" - I told him in my mind and I stopped walking and watching him. He knew. He walked out of the mall. He moved in very strange way. In my day job I am a medical professional, I have seen hundreds or thousands addicts and people with metal disorder, but it was diffent. He moved a bit like a marionette, as if he was not in full control of his body. I watched him leave. He waited me outside. Came closer, started to say something but I raised my hand (and a wall) in front of his chest and said: "NO!". And I left him. Maybe it sounds stupid, but it felt very strange. You don't see junkies in Sweden, virtually no homeless and beggars. But I have a great experince with people who are in trouble and I felt like he was only faking and had a diffent, malicious agenda.
So, the question:
Is it my imagination or resistence like this is to be expected? To be honest, I did not expect this so quickly and intensely. I don't think it is due to some sort of attachment to me at the moment. Oh again: I am not planning to mess with these things ( I wish to walk on the opposite polarity) but I am not afraid of them anymore, thanks to you.
Would be greateful for some feedback from you or the Team.
Much obliged and best wishes,
:)
Hi Jesse,
Thanks for the answer and I hope all of you are doing well!
I have to say your words are/were spot on, even retrospectively.
I tell you what happened afterwards, maybe it will help others as well.
So after last encounter I mentioned in my original question happened the following: I was at home, alone. It was evening time and I was preparing to do my energy exercises.
And then there it was that descending chill in my spine and suddenly a strong, gloomy, ghostly atmosphere took over at home. It escalated very quickly to be very scary, strange noices, feeling of an ominous presence in the house, even the cat freaked out. It was very bad.
And then suddenly, I don't know how, came the realization : It is me, who is behind this. There was nothing here, at least not a separate being, if there was something I created it out of my thoughts and now it was feeding on my fear of the unknown.
Since then I am testing out this theory and better controlling my thoughts and mental body and also even if I encounter something I hold on to accept it as it is and not the feel fear, because it is - at least for me - the key. Fear gives enormous power to the these things.
It seems to be working.
I have to write about what happened after this, please hang in there. :)
It happened in London, so maybe Robert would know more about it. I don't know what it was, I tell you what I saw as I saw it.
I was in a short trip to London, it was the first time I was in the UK.
The second night I was meditating in the hotel room, which was at Hyde park. After the relaxation exercises I was pulled into another place. It never never happened before.
I was outside on the streets of London. The light was very strange. Like an omnipresent ambient light, like what you see in a thin fog with a flashlight. No Sun, no darkness either. The street was put together from piece of London of different times. There was "puzzles pieces" from recent London, and parts that seemed very old, from many different eras. The street was full of people, whom - in my state - identified as deceased, ghosts. Also from various times. There were hundreds of them.
The point is that I didn't freak out, I was watching them calmly. They were not curious about me so I just stood there for a while then I returned to my normal mental state, back to the hotel room. Even if I didn't know what it was, normally I would have totally freaked out and spiraled into panic. But I was able to remain completely calm and nothing negative has happened at all.
And yes, there is new strange birthmark on my right foot, it wasn't there before. Had it checked with a doctor, it is not cancer, but he said it has to be removed asap.
So we will see.
Wishing all of you all the best!